Perasaan Seorang Makcik

HALOOOOOO~~~~

lama gilaaaaaa tak hapdet!!

finally, dah sampai ke penghujung sem. thesis, article semua dah selamat submit kat Puan Rusnah Kesabaran Tinggi .. tamatlah sudah "sharipah bila kamu nak hantar......". dengan ini saya mengambil kesempatan mengucapkan terima kasih teragung bagi Puan Rusnah yg banyak bersabar.

mcm la dia baca blog.

SEBAB DIA TAK BACA LA KENA TULIS~~~!!

tima kasih kak ros, time kasih kasi saya hantar ujunggg ujungg waktu office gsb dah katop, kak ros gigih tunggu depan pintu gsb di hening petang jumaat yang ade pasar malam.. tapi kak ros tabah, sikit pun kak ros tak marah. ai lev yu kak ros.

gitu.

berbalik pada topik yg dipilih harini. takde la pilih pun. telipon adik tanya 'wey aku lama tak tulih blog, nak cerita pasai apa aa?' dia jawab

'perasaan seorang makcik'.

Asmak tu dari darjah lima perangai mcm makcik2, masuk 20-an terus masuk alam atok2. mungkin dia merindui zaman dia muda dulu kot. tu bagi idea camni.

baiklah...

Perasaan seorang makcik...

hmmm..

ammm...

mmm...

emmm...

aaa...mmmm...

huwargggggggghhhhhh


*larikkkkkkkkkkkkk!!! nangis setempat. tumbok dinding. amik wudhu'. solat. tenangkan hati*


ok dah tenang hati. its not easy (sumpah tak tipu) accepting the fact that youth are no longer an age category that you are confined in.. it's not easy (ini lagi tak tipu), knowing that next year i will hit 3- 0.  Last time (wayyyyy back), i use to tell myself, those above 25 i should call makcik and not kakak. sekarang ideologi tersebut adalah karut sama skali. twentyfivers call me akak. HOMAIGADD.

dulu beli krim muka harussssss nak yg whitening bagai. sekarang ni whitening products ke tepi kauuuu, anti aging come to mama!!! nangispelukcium segala maknika collagen2 yg bertaburan kat guardian, watson nyambek dsb.

i am a freak of old age. eh tak. i welcome old age, cause with age comes wisdom. but with age comes kedutan muka leher dan kemeresoton elastisiti kulit yg drastik skali dgn metabolisma badan, menyebabkan penampilan sudah tidak lagi semenawan usia muda.

baju lama masih muat... kejap, ini bukan utk show off. muat TAPI bagai nak meletup. seumpana membaluti sebijik nangka.

bila pegi shopping ADA HATI nak panggil salesperson 'akak'. pdhal umur diorg sekerat umur diri sendiri. sorriiii~~~.. terbiasa sebenarnya.. tapi akak tu kan pangillan hormat. contoh: kak ros.. pdhal kak ros tu dah status nenek. tapi sebab dia penyelamat nyawa lagi berdedikasi, panggilan akak tu adalah simbolik respect.

one of the reason that made me feel old is when i realised that the younger generations have no clue, diulangi, NOT A SINGLE CLUE, of the celebs i talk about. adik2 edros langsung tak tau KRU tu ape, penat edros gigih rap lagu fanatik nak show off kat adik2. siannn.. sembang la juliana banos ke rosnah mat aris ke, langsung diorang tak tau. baru tau perasan mak ayah dulu2 sembang kencang jins samsudin, ed osmera, maria menado semua tu pastu kecewa anak2 muka blur... mcmni rupenye rasa dia.. *nangessss*

dulu masa sekolah2, berpuak2.. junior dgn junior.. senior dgn senior.. senior form 5 lain.. itu otai tak leh kacau.. senior form 3, form 4, itu clan kakak2 angkat semua.. sekarang ni, tak kira senior tua mana pun.. langkau je masuk umur 25 dan keatas, lagi2 bila ada anak, semua dah jadi satu clan. which is good. in a way. like how i bond with my elder sis. masa kecik2 dulu garangnya dia kat adik2 nauzubillahiminzalikk. dia tua 6 tahun, so dia form 5 adik2 baru terkinja2 darjah 6 pastu sibuk nk join geng akak2. selalu dia akan naik hantu bila kena paksa jaga adik, tak pun kena suruh bawak adik gi mana2. benci sungguh dia kat adik2 masa tu.. sekarang ni?  dia dh 35. makcikkkk  sgt. dia yang whatsapp  'halo adik2, hampa nak pi mana? nak ikot~'.. kitorg yg bertempik 'lariiiii wehhh lariiiii, kariah nak ikutt'.. ahaahaha tapi lagi best sekarang ni dari dulu... walaupun geng makcik2, tapi sungguh la terasa kewujudan seorang kakak. dulu cuma rasa kasih sayang seorang singa yg lapar je.

dulu kemain tampar adik birat2 sbb koyak poster KNOTB, sekarang rilek je kena buli anak sendiri boleh senyum2 lagi..

tak lupa jugak the ultimate reason i turn into a makcik.. because i am a makcik... a makcik to segerombolan anak2 sedara..  i am a proud makcik to 3 nephews and 2 nieces... kalau campur yg anak2 kazen mazen, im not sure how much.. bnyk la.. dalam angka puluh puluhan yang kalau time hari raya tu mesti ade je insiden terlupa bagi duit raya sbb ramai sgt, tak tau mana yg dah dapat mana yang belum, atau pun buat2 lupa nak bagi.    my first nephew was born when i was 22 years old..  the second one comes a year later.. i was soooo excited to have my nephew and niece masa tu.. cause i have no younger siblings.. ade la adik, adik yang muda 12 minit tapi berperwatakan 50 tahun ke atas so tak kire.  hari2 pegi rumah abang sbb nak main dgn anak sedara...

the youngest but the biggest, abderahman. ni apehal sebek2 ni, aunty tak cukup hot ke? cube cakapppppppp

nohhhhhhh!!! the kacakest. kecik2 rupa mcm modewls gitu.  

khadijah, abderamon, and imaan. yg tgh tu paling baby skali, tapi dia la paling heavyweight champion.

ammariah!!!!  ni yang paling tua dan jugak otai skali. ammar panggil imaan 'troublemaker'..hahahahaha korg tau tak korg inherit genetic troublemaker dari mane??  mestilah aunty asmakkk dan khalid!! *larikkk*

ok well, aging is not a fun thing.. definitely not welcomed by most women.. sadly, there's no fountain of youth.. and growing old is not a choice.. it really is not so bad.. some say age is just a number.. i think it's more than just numbers.. it's not just about how i look in person, it's more of the role i play and the responsibilities gained. yes i have crow's feet decorating the corners of my eyes, but underneath the wrinkled me, there is wisdom that i've acquired through life lessons.. my dad use to say that experience is expensive... well yes, definitely, one wrong choice and there's not much option of turning back, u have to pay the price. maybe i've treaded on these 'expensive' experiences.. and i have paid my price.. and there were times when i felt really 'broke'. but that's what life is about.. and years later, now.. i realise that all that had happened, happened for a reason and it took me to where i am now.. i am older, by the minute and the only way to feel good about it is to embrace it gracefully.. graceful ke? haha.. ok lah, its not really that bad.. tolongg la tolonggg, jangan compare diri dengan artis2.. that is not smart. semua org lain2.. mcm kelakar je compare physical being.. daripada nak compare kenapa maria kang anak 3 badan meletop, tak pun demi moore dah 51 tapi nampak mcm 25 ke... cuba la compare benda lain, berapa kali  khatam quran dlm setahun ke, brapa banyak amal jariah ke, brapa banyak simpanan akhirat ke?... *larikkkkkkkk***


oklah.. setakat ni dulu post ni. setelah berzaman tak post, terus hapdet pengalaman seorang makcik.. kalau pasni tak hapdet gak ntah2 pasni sambung part 2: pengalaman seorang nenek. hohohohoho